Dear Jesus I place myself at the foot of the cross, standing with your mother who is now my mother for in your suffering you gave her to us. Oh what love you bestowed upon us in giving us your mother. Thank you Jesus, you know how I weak I am, so at baptism She became the Mother of my life never to leave my side.
I compassionate you in your suffering my Jesus, oh how I wish I could do more, give you more. How I long to share in your bitter sorrow, and yet you speak silently in my soul saying ” Your desire means more to me than the action.” Jesus you are so merciful I do not deserve the gift you have called me to accept. The gift of sharing your cross and yet you placed the cross ever so gently upon my shoulders. I remember that day in February 5 yrs ago, it was lent and I heard your voice calling me to follow you.
Dear Jesus how I trembled in fear when I heard the word cancer. I said in my anxiety: Why Lord why this, you know this mother’s heart and I cannot bear the thought of leaving my children. They are so young, they need me, who will take care of them? this cancer is rare and my chances of surviving are not good.” At that moment your passion and death became food for my soul, my prayer, my meditation . It was on the cross where you showed me where true love is to be found, in the emptying of myself of all that was not of God, of dying to self, of seeing myself for who I really am, of receiving your grace and realizing I cannot do anything without you. You called me to trust in you. Oh the graces you bestow on all your children who open their hearts and souls to your merciful grace. It consumes all fear and unites our souls forever in love. I finally came to understand that you are not distant from us when we suffer, you are with us in our suffering. You shed tears with us, you hold us close to your Sacred Heart when everything seems lost, you enter into our pain giving weak souls courage to go on. You show us that battle is not lost when we fatigue overwhelms us. Your love becomes a consuming fire .A fire that consumes our sins, makes our souls long for you, a desire to know you more, to love you to the point of death. How good you are Jesus! You first took upon yourself all the sufferings that mankind would have to endure and more so that we would never be alone in our sufferings. We can now say Jesus knows, Jesus is with me, I will never be alone. Jesus is within me. Your love did not stop there. You wanted to give us more, so you give yourself to us daily in the Holy Eucharist, You remain in every tabernacle in every church until the end of time waiting for us to come to you where you ease all pain and wipe away all tears. Where would we be without the Sacraments of the Church? I know I could not go on, my soul would die. We would not know love. Without the gift of your mother, how could I ever be a mother.
You have given me more than I could ever hope to ask for. I know now Jesus, that all that really matters is Love. Only Love makes one able to say “yes’ to the cross. Love picks us up after every fall. Love nails us to the cross. Love is all, it is everything. The Cross and Love are inseparable. I would not change the course of my life for anything. I have touched love and there is no greater joy!
“Everywhere, wherever we find ourselves, wherever we are called to bear witness, we must protect life, we must guard human beings from everything that can crush them underfoot. Woe to those who inflict suffering. And woe to those who have destroyed a human life, who have desecrated a image of God, even when it was already breathing it’s last, even when it seemed to represent only a vestige of humanity.” ~Father Alfred Delp~
“Life, and especially our spiritual life, often drags on heavily…It is weary work to be always fighting with our evil passions, and disheartening work to make so little way. Temptations tease us, and scruples worry us; and to be dead, buried, and safe in purgatory, seems the limit to our peevish ambition. And why is this? Because we do not serve Jesus for love. If we did, it would be with us as it was with Jacob. Years would seem but days, for the greatness of our love. Now let us see if it is, after all so impossible for us to serve our dear Lord out of Love.” ~ Father Faber~
Pope Francis calls all Christians to unity during His General Audience Catechesis. He challenges us not to remain resigned to this division, but to take the step towards reconciliation and full communion. “Holy Father, keep them in thy name which thou has given me, that they be one, even as we are one,” (John 17:11)
We live in a world filled with so much division, hate, and anger. There is a evil fueled by a desire to erase God from families, marriages, schools, and we go on as though nothing is wrong. We have become lukewarm, we want to remain in our ” comfort zone.” and Jesus is shoved aside.as families fall apart, marriages are destroyed, abortion is rampant, no one cares about the family. We stop praying and going to church because we think God doesn’t care. But it is our pride that has shoved Him aside.
“Every attack against the unity of faith is an attack against Christ Himself” ( Saint John Paul II)
What is the cause of the division? It is the desire to do thing’s our own way, without God. This causes a weakness in our souls because we can only see what we want to see. We fail to see the person that is in need sitting next to us. We refuse to listen to another’s point of view.We think we are right, division steps in. This individualism is the enemy of union. When we begin to live outside of God’s will, we say “Non Servium,” I will not serve. In refusing to serve our fellow man, we say no to Jesus. This then is where our prayer lives weaken and slowly diminishes This is when we must turn to the merciful heart of Jesus, and ask Him to teach us how to love the way He loved. We also must stand with the Blessed Mother at the foot of the cross, for the devil flees from the cross. Christ wants us to remain in union with the church, to help each other as brothers and sisters in Christ.
Today is the first day of Autumn. I can see it in the color of the trees. I can smell it in the cool, brisk morning as the birds sing and all is quiet. In the morning as I sit outdoors I find myself contemplating God’s masterpiece the beauty of fall.
Fall is my favorite season. To me it’s the season of quiet,calmness, and order once again in my hectic house of nine. Fall has a beauty of it’s own as it says good by to summer. Fall comes to us quietly and prepares us for winter. I love to decorate the house with all my fall decorations and to smell the maple candle burning as I sit and read. I love the smell of baking apple pies that were hand picked by my children. The smell of cinnamon and apples has a soothing effect. I love the family car rides as we enjoy the the beauty of the trees and their many colors. In late fall the fire is burning as we eat dinner together and talk about the day. As the days shorten I keep busy preparing the house for the holidays that are coming and the children await in eager anticipation for all the fun, family and joy ahead.